You Knew What You Were Doing





You stole it from me and you know it
You know you lied

I worked for years on the child of my mind
Few things have meant more to me

Long nights of no sleep hunched over my pencil and paper
Scribbling until my hands were sore

I wracked my mind, delving into depths I didn’t know I possessed
You told me it was great

I have loved the fruits of your mind almost my entire life, I admit it
I was star struck when we seemed to have become such good friends

I would anything I could to help my friends
Ask them

I cleaned for you
Happily, I asked for nothing in return

I sorted, packed, and lifted heavy things for you
Happily, I asked for nothing in return

I put up with your volatile moods and bouts of explosive anger
News flash my friend everyone has a run of bad luck and you shouldn’t lash at those who support you

Still you told me it was great, four eight months you told me I was great
Why

Instead of having fun with my friends at the great gathering I worked for you
And still you told me I was great

One week later,
I’m shit?
I don’t know what I’m doing?
Paying me would be like taking up the ass?
You are disappointed?
It’s not what we talked about?
I don’t know what I’m doing?

News flash you “My Friend”
I’ve been doing this awhile
You are a tyrant
You are out of touch
You never listened to a thing I said
It was all there
People loved it

I have moved on now, new projects await
And I won’t lie, my experiences with you opened those doors
So thank you for that

You released your version of my child, the child you murdered
It’s bland
It’s boring
It will make you money
You never would have even attempted it without me
But you did give me credit for that
So thank you again

People complained and now you are back peddling
You are putting forth pieces of my child
Thank you yet again, though it galls me

What you need to know so that my mind and heart can be free of  a pain you will never understand
I was right
You were wrong
You lied
You stole
I have been more than professional in public
But I am still mad
I am better than you
I have more honor than you
You destroyed our friendship … for a buck





Josh (1-6-2009)